"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself."
Christianity has more questions than it does answers. Because even if you're some of faith to be true, like God loves us, no matter where you go from that question, how, when, what etc, always you will come back to why.
A question that of course we cannot answer but actually have to take on faith. Faith of course is not reasonable, logical, provable; if it was any of those things it would not be faith. And it is hard. And then of course, weekly as meet together we are asked to put this faith into our daily lives, to let our faith mould and change us.
Faith isn't there for us to keep things as they are, to give us support for the way we want things to be done. Faith is fluid,flexible, needs updating daily as it faces each new challenge.
Practically how of course does this work. Faith as a theoretical concept is one thing, but if it was just theory then our study classes would be full. Rather it is practical and when the choices are easy it is almost irrelevant as faith.
The question comes when our life's choices are hard and we ask, what would Jesus do in our situation. Which is when our private reflections and prayer life's become important because Jesus did not live in the 21st century so the details of the challenges laid before are different, but the underlying principles are the same. And so often when we do ask ourselves the question what would Jesus do, we can do exactly that (assuming we have gone through the Discernment so we are not doing some thing that we want to do but giving that decision authority in our minds by claiming that would be what Jesus would want us to do), and follow what Jesus would do, but do it through duty rather than instinctive love.
Now this isn't necessarily a bad thing, duty is what gets us through the tough times, duty ensures that possibly the right thing is done. Duty if it is not questioned by the self, has the danger of becoming self righteous. The great Sufi once said, charity is charity until the moment the giver perceives it as charity.
What God desires above all else is that instinctive love, that prayerful love that is so wrapped up in the will of God, that the questions of what, why, when aren't relevant rather the question becomes how. And is it hard to do this, to be like is, yes it is. Faith as once describe by a man far more spiritual than I as this- Faith is going through like a dark forest , puntuated by breaks in the forest where we see light , we hold onto those lights where we can see clearly to give us strength for the dark moment ahead. I would also venture to suggest that at each shedding of light we see a little more of the forest and therefore have slightly more understanding of the forest each time we come to a break in the over hanging canopy. I would also suggest be Careful of those wearing artificial light power pack so they don't actually see that the forest is that dark in the first place.
Whilst in the forest we ask ourselves questions, and dependent on those questions tells us, where our heart is. Maybe we ask, why me? Maybe we ask, how do I get out? Maybe we ask what can we see to guide us out? Maybe we ask, who else is in here as well? Which question do we ask? In life which question we ask does portray where our heart is? The person who asks, why did they receive that and not me, betrays their inner self. But the person who asks, what must I do to also receive that, betrays an ambition. The person who asks how can I help someone else also receive that, portrays a desire to assist.